Once Upon A Memory

I miss you/ I miss your smile/ And I still shed a tear/ Every once in a while

The music plays on. A little while more and the next song will start.

But this memory will never end.

I still remember you vividly. The times we spent together are forever etched in my mind.

I will never be able to forget you. Sometimes I wonder, late at night, do you still remember me too?

It is a question I am almost scared to contemplate. Not all answers are forgiving to a heart.

Be careful with this heart; it is fragile, it breaks.

I still remember sitting next to you. Those few months I treasured and never wanted to let go. I remember each conversation, stroke it tenderly and put it away in my memory.

Sometimes it hurts to remember.

I presume you have forgotten me already; it has been even longer months, pulled out, stretched and magnified, since you last talked to me. Letters, calls have since stopped.

The silence hurts like nails through a sore heart.

I hear your words, see them in my mind, I remember, even as the silence stretches on I can still remember.

You used to say “How was your day?” or “Are you feeling better?”

Despite your late hours you would talk to me everyday without fail. I could not understand why all of a sudden you had to stop.

Was it something I did? /Was it something you said/ Don’t leave me hanging…

The songs drag on, their lyrics ebbing away, becoming invisible. I cannot concentrate. My thoughts keep returning to you.

What did I do wrong?

I reminiscence about the past; about you especially, about how much you meant to me. I suppose you never got that part. About how I looked forward everyday to seeing your words, hearing your voice.

Did you ever know?

I want to tell you. I want to hear your voice again, tell you that you mean so much to me that when you turned away and left me there to fall, I almost could not stand up again.

If I had to live without you/ What kind of life would that be

I don’t know what to do. I am tired of hearing a calm, robotic voice telling me to leave a message.

I must have left a million messages already.

None of them have been answered.

Once upon a time, in a kingdom far far away
A princess awoke from a dream…

The life I lead without you is a nightmare, one with no controls, no brakes and no steering wheels.

I still do not know where I went wrong. But you will always be a part of me, a memory, something I will never ever forget.

You mean so much to me.

I’m here without you baby/ But you’re still on my lonely mind

Once upon a memory…